dollynism

wanna somethin me hypnotized wanna  forget  all real feellings cos they givin me so pain now.. i dont want remember most happy moment cos this can bring back worst moment if i be hopefull  my hope its not become true,  i will be hopeless.. if i feel complete myself , i dont know what can  i do ; feeling in pieces if i trust in again, i realize his lies and  his deceptions how i keep on my way as before if i feel love again, he make me feel one of  special girl in the world..  how i belive  him?? maybe he  fuckin poor vampire  like my old one  ... i dont know İf i make me benumb my all emotins, neither of shiny  dark  i